You and me and five bucks.

Talking to a friend last night and remembered Reality Bites. My favorite scene?

T: You see, this is where Troy was fired... from his eleventh job. He was an illustrious office cleaner. Now if you'll come this way, please...we will continue our short but happy walking tour...of the career of Troy Dyer. And here we have the newsstand...where Troy dared to ask the question... Are employee snacks subsidized? The answer... tragically, no. In total, he has been fired... from... yes, count them... twelve jobs.

L: Twelve? Ouch.

T: So you shouldn't feel so bad. One of these mornings, I'm going to wake up before noon and...

L: Ha ha. Yeah, right.

n the TV... and there Bryant Gumbel will be, and he'll say... "Today we have with us... the Pulitzer Prize winning documentarian Lelaina Pierce. "Lelaina, after your first film, Why Barbie Is Bad... You seem to have forgotten all about... your best friend, Troy Dyer."


T: And I'm gonna turn 

o

 a couple of smokes, a cup of coffee..

L: Troy who? What was that name again?

T: Oh, right through the heart. I'll probably be working at the Whole Foods... playing warehouses... hanging around places like the Radio Shack... screaming that I used to know you... and you'll be there in the lights... and you'll be all beautiful and shit.

L: Oh, Troy. No, no, no. That'll never happen. They would never hire you at Whole Foods.



T: You see, Lainie, this is all we need.

.

.. And a little bit of conversation. You and me and five bucks.



L: You got it.

Wherein I tell you I had sandwich for breakfast.

Di ko alam what got into me but suddenly was seized with this brilliant idea to play [X] Marks the Spot by Sandwich on the way to work this morning. It was a brilliant idea, alright. I'd forgotten how fun the band was. Realized too that no two songs in the album were the same. Talk about creativity huh? The term "musical stylings" is uncannily apt for them. Or, that album at least. I particularly love the song, Manila: "Paraparaparaparaparapara Boss. Diyan lang sa tabi. Gigimik lang ako sa Malate." And how can you not love, "Take me to the Quiapo Bridge" just as the band segues into the song's bridge?

This is so gonna be a great day.

Wherein I wonder if I'm doing things right.

Kapag sinabi ko sa iyo na ika'y minamahal
Sana'y maunawaan mo na ako'y isang mortal
At di ko kayang abutin ang mga bituin at buwan
O di kaya ay sisirin perlas ng karagatan

Kapag sinabi ko sa iyo na ika'y iniibig
Sana'y maunawaan mo na ako'y taga-daigdig
Kagaya ng karamihan, karaniwang karanasan
Daladala kahit saan, pang-araw-araw na pasan

Ako'y hindi romantiko, sa iyo'y di ko matitiyak
Na pag ako'y kapiling mo kailanma'y di ka iiyak
Ang magandang hinaharap sikapin nating maabot
Ngunit kung di pa maganap, sana'y huwag mong ikalungkot

Kapag sinabi ko sa iyo na ika'y sinisinta
Sana'y ibigin mo akong mulat ang iyong mga mata
Ang kayamanan kong dala ay pandama't kamalayan
Na natutunan sa iba na nabighani sa bayan

Halina't ating pandayin isang malayang daigdig
Upang doon payabungin isang malayang pag-ibig
Kapag sinabi ko sa iyo na ika'y sinusuyo
Sana'y ibigin mo ako, kasama ang aking mundo


Made the mistake of listening to this song Friday morning and it put me in a blue funk (again). It got me thinking about things that have been crossing my mind with in increased regularity lately, despite very determined effort to block them from my placid, if numb, consciousness. 

Forest vs. trees-wise, I can't help feeling the niggling suspicion that I could be doing something more worthwhile with my life. I believe there are no do-overs and we get to make do with only one life. So you'll understand me if I want to make sure I don't waste this one.

Half the time I second-guess myself and wonder if am doing things right. Am I?

Oo, alam ko lovesong yan ni Gary Granada. Eh sa iba ang naaalala ko sa kanta eh. Deadma na :)